Monday, September 17, 2018

Spiritual Blocks, Your Determination and Rerouting The Brain

Spiritual blocks come in many forms. We often hear of "awareness" as being an attribute to a Buddhist monk or used in self-defense classes to teach us vigilance.

In my experience, awareness is the energy of mind in paying attention to the world you live in...but this is only the sensory level of awareness. Meaning: Awareness attained by the use of eyes, nose, ears, etc...

This level of awareness only informs the deeper level of mind to our supposed reality.

The deeper level of mind, the subconscious or super conscious mind could be visualized as a guard at a giant gate who is hearing knocking 24 hours of every day and has to determine who they "let in" to the palace.

If your "guardman" is a push-over, they could let in the criminals that are there to rob you of your way of life, peaceful state, or your precious resources.  The Guard is your lifeline. The Guard is the embodiment of what is typically called, "Deeper Awareness or Intuition."

As the world turns and days turn into months and months turn into years, your Guard can tire of hearing the incessant knocking at the gate.  Out of basic overwhelm, the Guard could just unlock the gate and let whatever is being brought in through sensory awareness into the "palace."

The Palace:

The Temple of You, The Palace of You, is the sacred part of you that belongs to the Infinite. It is perfect, complete, lacking in nothing. The imperfection came when you took notice of the material world and found it to be an indicator of your Inner world. This was the death of your Infinite perfection.
The first "sin" if you will. Take all religious connotation out of that statement.
The word 'sin' comes from the term used for archers or marksmen.. it simply means "to miss the mark."

Everyone is a little "off" the mark because you have to exist in a material existence. This is not our natural state of being. There is more to you than just electrons firing to a nervous system, pheromones, hormones, or carnal desires.
Hard core atheist will describe the human being as nothing more than cells informing other cells and impulse into action, then cause and effect of that autonomic response.

Even if that were all we knew, which it isn't, but for the sake of argument and in fairness to the atheist out there... That in and of itself implies a natural order that is intelligently designed. I think Atheist should rename themselves Accidentalists. If everything just happens by a spontaneous accidental process, (which is a paradoxical statement) then just check out of any process or system of life. Go live in the woods and live on impulse, carnal desires, and fear. You will not last long.

When we say someone is behaving like "an animal," this also is an unfair statement to animals! Animals have a respect for the natural order of things. A pack of wolves will only hunt what will sustain the pack. They are collaborative not competitive. There may be a hierarchy to their pack, but that is a natural order to sustain the pack against dangers and to prevent the cessation of the family unit's future in the world.

Moving along...

The sensory awareness is our way of navigating and informing us of the reality we perceive as being, "our life." We all have sensory awareness, animals have sensory awareness, insects have sensory awareness. But why? Because at the base level, we all love our life. No?  Even the smallest insect when it perceives a danger to it's life, it will move away from that perceived danger. (i.e. the human foot trying to smash it to bits or just walking on its pathway)

The current state of the world is due to relying on sensory awareness as being the Law instead of merely a Suggestion!
The Guard that is at the gate of Infinite Awareness or the Temple of the REAL you, doesn't have to tire or become complacent in who he lets into the gate. You can place an additional guard in place. You can see, hear, smell, and perceive your material physical world but with an awareness that it isn't what it seems to be. Why? Because everyone is existing using their senses so it has created the energy signature of the physical or material world. Meaning the world you can touch, taste, see, hear, and smell.

There is a moment that all human beings go through at some point when you are faced with something you see, hear, taste, smell, or perceive in any way that CANNOT be let into the gate that is being watched by The Guard, i.e. Your Subconscious.

It may be triggered by a bad relationship where someone is telling you they love you, but you are feeling on an emotional mind level something else. Something that isn't love. The Guard or your Super Self, knows what love is. It came from Love. Or in the ancient Coptic, Greek, and Latin.. the Logos.

Logos is the all caps proper noun LOVE. The Love that created the universe itself. Creation is love in action. Creating something from nothing requires an energy that is actively seeking to see a result that will be appreciated or loved.

So the subject of this blog is Spiritual blocks, determination, and rerouting the brain, right?

The brain in its physical functioning based on the nervous system, is not unlike a series of dog trails. You will see the route that your dog takes to bark at the postman every day. He may not know why he's barking at the postman 12 years into it. It's just what he instinctively does because he has a neurological pathway that is manifested in his actual dog pathway that he runs every single day.

We do the same thing. Take cigarette smoking... a scientist will tell you that it is just the nicotine people are addicted to. This isn't true. The neurological pathway that was formed by the physical actions and sensory awarenesses that were taken into the mind and taken to the Guard at the Gate, formed a path to that gate that is now worn down and the "obvious choice" mentally. When certain things are perceived by sensory awareness, as in seeing, hearing, tasting, touching, smelling, the conscious mind looks around and is constantly trying to deliver "a message" to the Guard of your Super Conscious Palace/Temple of You.
So... it looks around and after a while it is exactly like the route that the dog takes to bark at the postman.

I can say this because I use to be a smoker and went through years of quitting and starting again. The only time I was successful and remained that way was when I understood the "messages I was taking to the Guard."  I had to see that what I was perceiving was not related to the act of smoking a cigarette. If I was happy I smoked, if I was sad I smoked, if I had just eaten I smoked, if I was driving in the car... I SMOKED. All of these perceptions of the physical world were not being perceived accurately or if at all. It was taking me OUT of awareness and into the comfortable route I had developed to live in the physical world. It was in a sense, avoidance of Mind. Avoidance of the present Mind.

These are merely examples that I can share to put this into bite sized chunks for consumption.

I will say that before I began the nasty habit of smoking cigarettes at 16 years old, I had another route I had made that was essentially the same thing. It was the dog path of the previous dog who barked at the cyclist in the back alley but didn't bark at the postman!  Eventually the grass grew over that pathway and now a garden grows where once there wasn't even the slightest blade of grass.
That previous "dog path" for me before the age of 16 was food. Logically, the only thing I could use to cope with the physical world or to avoid it, was food. I ate when I was happy, sad, confused, relaxing, learning, overwhelmed, angry... Wait?! Those are the same feelings I had when I would reach for the cigarettes!
You see my point.

So how did I figure this out?

Now is the meat of this study. A study that is an active study for me. One that continuously is teaching me about my "dog pathssssssss"....

Suffering of all living things comes from just being alive. Yet all happiness we experience also comes from the same. Our suffering be it acute or benign is all dependant on what shit your Guard will take into the Palace of You.

Your Guard may be a big suspicious warrior that downvotes anything that seems "too good to be true." Or your Guard may be a sweet little old lady that is gullible and gets ripped off easily. Or you may have a Guard that is a bit of both depending on what is brought to the Gateway of your Palace... or Super Infinite/Subconscious Mind.

My Guard's weakness was guilt. When my Guard gets "too mean and rigid" then my Guard feels crumby about himself and paces around in a circle hashing over and over again about the why's of vetoing the "free pass into the Palace." The best way to get into my Subconscious Mind, past the Guard, is to guilt the Guard into feeling like he's hurt something by not letting in "in."  In other words, by telling my Guard that he's a "bad Guard." He will believe that and he will open the door, unfortunately.

This will take some introspection and practice because our dog paths don't grow grass overnight. They can, but unless you have the focus of Yoda, then I doubt you can do that in one 24 hour period. But desperation for change can propel you to focus that intensely if you are fully honest with how that path was created, what created it, and understand the nature of what can "grow back."

Some pathways can't re-grow grass. BUT... that doesn't mean you can't build on top of it! Good or bad.

Letting go of what you are perceiving in your physical world as being the reality of your life is the first step. You can still see the same things, hear the same things, smell the same things, touch the same things, but to have Awareness of what those things are triggering within you is the first step to "regrowing the grass over the dog path."

Example: I have had a tremendous amount of loss during the holiday seasons or events that happen that are out of the pattern of my routine. (going out of town, someone else going out of town that I live with, a season change, new workout routine, etc.)  So... when I go to (just an example) enjoy the holiday season or make plans to take a new dance class or whatever, this unsettling physical feeling happens in my solar plexus first, and then comes up to the mind and feels like panic or anxiety of some sort. I may get punchy or short with people, or bump into things or get clumsy because I have this chaotic energy that on a conscious level I am not understanding fully.

I may think, "come on Mel, you are being lazy." This is SHAMING THE GUARD at the gate. Remember how I said that the fastest way into my Subconscious Mind/Palace of Me/Temple is by shaming the guard?  This is how insidious the shaming can become. The dog wants so badly to bark at that mailman but there's now a big wheelbarrow in the way of the path. He will go around it, but will end up right back on the direct path he has worn down to bark at that mailman!

The mailman is going to come no matter what. We know this. This is a simple way of saying: If you are alive, living happens. So we must change our sensory awareness and fine tune it with a filter that doesn't perceive the same things as they are, but is perceiving with the help of The Guard of the gateway to your subconscious mind.

So back to my example above...
A new "thing" that I want to do or enjoy happens and when I start to do that thing, I somehow end up barking at the "mailman." Or in my case, some sort of traumatic situation will occur like my pet will get sick, or my father will get into a work related accident, or some weird bank account thing, or flat tire or care broken down, or I get sick....
Most people would just go back on the dog path of their mediocre awareness of the same routine, same sensory awareness without a second thought. Their first thought would be, "I don't like this gym," or "I hate Christmas," or "Yoga is not for me, it's stupid," or "I just don't like that person, I don't want to go out anymore with them." 

This is what I'm talking about regarding sensory awareness being a terrible indicator of our True Infinite reality. We've taken our primal perceptions to the Guard at the Gate and we've said, "Yeah, so this is what I've got again. Let me in please." The Guard hasn't been faced with new things in a while so he lets those sensory perceptions inside the Temple Gates. That's when the real shitstorm begins.

It can be anything from a breakdown like a panic attack, or worse. The Subconscious Mind remember is in constant communication with your Conscious mind. If the communication lines that are being utilized are the same old beaten pathways then there is no spiritual growth. In other words, a Spiritual Block will occur.

The only way to understand this and to prevent this is:
1. Awareness of Present Emotional Mind- How am I feeling? 
(there's no wrong answer here, any bread crumb will help you to remove the dog path that is pissing off your Guard and causing trouble in your life and preventing growth.)
*** As you deconstruct this, you will get more from just that simple question. Detach from it, do not judge how you are feeling, just accept it as how you are feeling. No guilt, no downplaying it, no shelving it for another time, no worry, no doubt... You must honor whatever the answer is by understanding that this is the truth of the Present Mind. It may not be a truth for long, but for that very moment it is the most truth you are capable of.

2. What are my sensory perceptions in my Present- What are you seeing, hearing, tasting, smelling, touching?  Pay attention. What colors are around? Are their males around you? Females? Birds singing in the trees? Is it sunny, warm, hot... cold, cloudy, rainy... day or night? What are you wearing? Who are you with? What day of the week is it? What different thing did you do? What did you eat? What has been said to you in the last few hours? Have you observed anything out of the normal routine? What sticks out in your mind? Or is it an ordinary day? If so, what is ordinary about it... get specific.

3. Isolating Unwanted Feeling- What category does my unwanted feeling fit into?
According to many ancient practices there are 8 spiritual fears:
*Ignorance(being faced with something you have no workable knowledge of nor understanding of)
* Pride (this is ego of the first... I know this better than anyone, how dare something confront me that denies me the superior feeling of Me... and no I will not ask for clarification or help. Who do think I am? An idiot? This is pride.)
*Anger (Anger comes from confusion first, and a sense of the first two I just listed... and this is destructive anger, not JUSTIFIED noble anger... yes there is a difference but it takes time to know what is motivating it)
*Jealousy (it's not normal and it's never helpful and it doesn't mean you care more. It's destructive and comes from a lack of wholeness in yourself)
*Erroneous Philosophies/Wrong View- (keeping old beliefs that are limiting to the growth of your spiritual life, your physical life, and tends to be the manifestation of a closed mind that lacks compassion)
*Greed (what's mine is mine and what is yours is also mine, and IF I give anything, it will only be a morsel that I will not need later but if I do, I will get it back double)
*Desire/Attachment- Endless wanting of material pleasures of the carnal mind. Attachment is unhealthy because it has no foundation, no roots. It is empty and provides only temporary satisfaction and typically grows and becomes more voracious over time. Vanity. (think about the people who are addicted to plastic surgery they cannot see themselves anymore, their vanity has taken the wheel of their mind)
*Doubt- The biggest of all the 8 spiritual fears is DOUBT. Doubt is an earthquake that shakes the foundation of your life. Doubting is the same as fearing but it cracks the window open that lets in all of the the rotten energies that want nothing more than to steal your peace and keep you locked in this world's suffering, violence, lack, and despair.

Think of the 8 Spiritual Fears in a circular pattern, each feeding to the next, the last feeding the first...
The term "spiraling out of control" comes from this. Enough cycling through these above Spiritual fears, you create momentum that spirals you to despair, depression, or worse... a sense of apathy about whom you hurt, including yourself.

4. Catch & Release- When you've gone through these steps and you've understood, even in the slightest sense, what is being given to the Guard of the Gate of your Subconscious Mind, you can give the Guard full power to catch the faulty conscious message coming from your sensory world and then you have the unique and opportune ability with your determination to oust or release it back from whence it came. It is not needed anymore. It is false. It is not allowed in. NONE SHALL PASS.

While you may feel silly saying that in your mind, I urge you to say it outloud. Don't worry, don't do it around other people, but in the car, or the bathroom or in the privacy of your own home say it out loud.
Say it with force. You will give your Guard a break for once because that guy has been fighting for you since you entered into this world. With both of you fending off the rotten stuff, you can get very savvy at seeing what the more subtle trickster perceptions are too. It is constant training of Present Mind Awareness, Catch and Release.   Ultimately you are the deciding factor in what you create for your life.

Does the energy that you have in your Present Mind Awareness feel good? Is it harmonious? Is it good for other people? Does it have love and kindness to life and living things? Is it understanding? Is it humble and a good steward of service to making the world better? Is it a trap? Is it desire? Is it greed? Is it doubt? Is it vanity? Is it Ignorance and Pride of the Ego unwilling to admit ignorance, or to humble itself to learn?

Whatever it is, you and You(The Guard) can build your reality and you will start having your physical sensory awareness see, hear, taste, smell and touch the things that build your purpose instead of keeping you stagnant or breaking you down.

I hope this reaches someone who really needs it. I am not a teacher, I am learning what I am trying to teach and teaching what I am learning, always.

.Live Long and Prosper.

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